ode to a woman.

life is so full of many ups and downs. and for the past two months mine has been a steady flow. there have been no rollercoasters in my daily routine, unless you count work. but even that has been unchanging. i took time to stay home to help with my little brother and grandmother. he had just been through a surgery and she has been unable to care for herself the way she's been able to before. she needs more help with things. but more importantly, she needs to be reassured. that things will be ok. that nothing is wrong. that what she thinks is happening, really isn't. it's weird being on this side of the road. she used to be the one to comfort me. to let me know things are alright. my grandmother helped raise me since my mom was a single working parent. she took me to school. picked me up. when i woke up in the middle of night scared from a dream she would pray with me and let me lay with her. she always had the tv on. the sound was off. but the glow was a comfort. when we came home from school she would tell us to look for surprises. she would always hid candy and money in the couch cushions. we would walk to 7-11 everyday so she could get her mtn. dew. she was so addicted. haha.  she would tell us to "take Jesus" everytime we left the house. she still does. :) when i set out to write, i didn't have this in mind. i had a completely different direction. but i guess Jesus had other plans. of all the people in my life to have loved the most, it's been her. she really is special. i know that my Jesus has a special place for her. and trying to prepare myself for that day is almost impossible. but i treasure the moments i still have with her. and i will never ever forget the ones that have already passed.

i guess what got me thinking was the night i just had. i got to spend time with my brother who has been in california for a discipleship program. all of the other people involved in the program were there as well. we had such sweet, inspiring conversations. and i love being around people that inspire me. that encourage me and help me strive to push after the Lord. i was thinking how much i appreciate them. what a blessing they are to my life. i think most my posts are about people. haha. but it's so true. i love them. deeply. so thank You, Lord. You have blessed me beyond with the people in my life.