there is one thing that i dwell on everyday. besides my love affair with Jesus. which i feel is something i am constantly dwelling on. but the thing that i really do enjoy thinking about is people. and the relationships i have in my life.
i love people to the death. and sometimes i may not be able to show it to them. but i care so deeply for people. and the friends that are in my life. i think about the ones i've had for decades. the ones i created so many memories with. these relationships are tucked in the deepest parts of my heart. i am not letting them go. ever. then there are the ones who i've only recently become great friends with. yet somehow i feeel as though i've known them forever. you connect on such a deep level. these ones will be hopefuls. the ones i long to keep around. then there are those who you can't even describe it in words to someone the relationship you have. you know them. they know you. and nothing you can do or say can ever make them think differently of you. they stick by your side through the hard times. they encourage you when you're down. they say the most ridiculous things you've ever heard. and sometimes you might actually think they're crazy. but all of this just makes you smile. makes you feel so blessed to be able to call them "friend".
"there is no fear in love..." first john four:eighteen.
i used to be afraid to love. but God has changed that fear into something beautiful. and i have learned to love recklessly. to have such a reckless abandon with my own heart is so freeing. i am not saying that all my relationships are perfect, by any means. but i have been given a new sight.
i want to love.
